Hi
I am no longer at this address since I am no longer leahalouie or Balancing Procrastination
Wont you join me at my new blog site
http://marriedinamerica.blogspot.com/
Thanks
Mar 11, 2009
Feb 2, 2009
one year
one year ago today i met my honey
last night at midnight my honey suprised me with my laptop all fixed and tuned up
today i found out that my laptop wont let me on facebook, hotmail or blogspot...all the things i love the the most on the internet so i resort back to my honeys computer
tomorow i hope it will be fixed so i can post some pictures
one year sure goes by fast
last night at midnight my honey suprised me with my laptop all fixed and tuned up
today i found out that my laptop wont let me on facebook, hotmail or blogspot...all the things i love the the most on the internet so i resort back to my honeys computer
tomorow i hope it will be fixed so i can post some pictures
one year sure goes by fast
Jan 23, 2009
Hello
So the stew was yummy, I think we ate it for the next week and even got Ava to try some. I ended up making another soup 3 or 4 days later...I am seeing that soups are a hit at my house since they are easily re-heated without the use of a microwave.
My computer is still broken and Tim's computer is too old to except my memory card or the right USB cord to transfer pictures so I still wait until the day I can show some more current pictures of life on my new Island.
It feels like it is becoming more home to me here. These last 3 months have been bit of a hard transition...ya I get to be with Tim and am married but sometimes I miss everyone at home more then I can handle. Some days I wish I could just call up my friend Leah and then show up at her house 20 mins later or walk in the mall and see 2 or 3 people that I just know ! But with that being said God has faithfully provided me with a new family of people...good people, annoying people, friendly and interesting people and I am extremly glad for that. I asked him for a friend around my age since most tend to be a lot older right now and for that I am still waiting.
I think when I get my social security number it will be even better because then I will be able to work...ohhh how I miss working...the mailbox has become my best friend, i check that thing religiously every day at 3:30...so if you ever want to send me mail I will gladly except.
xoxo, Leaha
My computer is still broken and Tim's computer is too old to except my memory card or the right USB cord to transfer pictures so I still wait until the day I can show some more current pictures of life on my new Island.
It feels like it is becoming more home to me here. These last 3 months have been bit of a hard transition...ya I get to be with Tim and am married but sometimes I miss everyone at home more then I can handle. Some days I wish I could just call up my friend Leah and then show up at her house 20 mins later or walk in the mall and see 2 or 3 people that I just know ! But with that being said God has faithfully provided me with a new family of people...good people, annoying people, friendly and interesting people and I am extremly glad for that. I asked him for a friend around my age since most tend to be a lot older right now and for that I am still waiting.
I think when I get my social security number it will be even better because then I will be able to work...ohhh how I miss working...the mailbox has become my best friend, i check that thing religiously every day at 3:30...so if you ever want to send me mail I will gladly except.
xoxo, Leaha
Jan 14, 2009
Stew
I wanted to start with some new photos today
but my husband didnt want me to bring my computer in until he looked at it first, he has a "fix it complex" that didnt come into effect until now ( my computer has been broken for 2 months). I told him I would probably have to pay some money to bring my laptop back to life so now he wants to help, go figure!
But anyways I am going to venture into making some stew, it was suppose to be lamb, but lamb is too expensive so it will be beef.
I will tell ya'll how it went once I have accomplished my task.
but my husband didnt want me to bring my computer in until he looked at it first, he has a "fix it complex" that didnt come into effect until now ( my computer has been broken for 2 months). I told him I would probably have to pay some money to bring my laptop back to life so now he wants to help, go figure!
But anyways I am going to venture into making some stew, it was suppose to be lamb, but lamb is too expensive so it will be beef.
I will tell ya'll how it went once I have accomplished my task.
Jan 13, 2009
Change.
I have been thinking
Thinking that I don’t write here enough
When I first started this blog I was a single girl living in Vancouver Canada with my vegan red headed roommate.
Now I am married living on a little Island in the US with my curly haired electrician husband and his own version of Dakota Fanning 6 year old daughter.
I want to perhaps start a new blog
A blog about my new life
A life which consists of lots of dish washing, laundry folding, church activities and meal creation.
Doesn’t sound as interesting as it could be but I didn’t think that looking at my friends feet for a week would be exciting yet it was.
I was thinking of starting a new blog that discusses my newness to being a wife, step mother and homemaker (I am still a student and that takes up a lot of my time too).
I was thinking of talking about my newness to cooking meals which I try to do about every second day, some are good many are failures...tonight was "outstanding" in the words of my husband...good ole chicken pot pie.
I want to add pictures (which means I need to get my butt down to a computer repair shop since mine is broken :( )
I want to share with ya'll how I have been living in a construction site since I have been married...right now I sit on a couch that sits on plywood with a sledgehammer, broom, huge garbage tin, electrical tools and nails all around.
I want to share how I will one day decorate this place (believe me it needs help)
I want to share my new life with my old life friends who are still my present friends.
I want to copy my friend Leah and do a "week in my shoes" post.
Thinking that I don’t write here enough
When I first started this blog I was a single girl living in Vancouver Canada with my vegan red headed roommate.
Now I am married living on a little Island in the US with my curly haired electrician husband and his own version of Dakota Fanning 6 year old daughter.
I want to perhaps start a new blog
A blog about my new life
A life which consists of lots of dish washing, laundry folding, church activities and meal creation.
Doesn’t sound as interesting as it could be but I didn’t think that looking at my friends feet for a week would be exciting yet it was.
I was thinking of starting a new blog that discusses my newness to being a wife, step mother and homemaker (I am still a student and that takes up a lot of my time too).
I was thinking of talking about my newness to cooking meals which I try to do about every second day, some are good many are failures...tonight was "outstanding" in the words of my husband...good ole chicken pot pie.
I want to add pictures (which means I need to get my butt down to a computer repair shop since mine is broken :( )
I want to share with ya'll how I have been living in a construction site since I have been married...right now I sit on a couch that sits on plywood with a sledgehammer, broom, huge garbage tin, electrical tools and nails all around.
I want to share how I will one day decorate this place (believe me it needs help)
I want to share my new life with my old life friends who are still my present friends.
I want to copy my friend Leah and do a "week in my shoes" post.
Jan 6, 2009
Jan 1, 2009
What!
I feel as if I am living someone elses life right now, more specifically in these last 24 hours.
I had a crappy crappy new years eve day and night
anD
I had a wonderful realization of Gods love.
My husband did something yesterday that now requires consequences to his actions, leaving me alone and semi worried ( only because I dont have any information on his situation/condition) but along with the heaviness in my heart there is a comfort.
God has shown me how much he cares for me by sending people my way or sending me to people as a strength and reassurance of his plan.
I have felt more loved in these last 24 hours by God's people here in Anacortes then ever before.
Doors have been opened
Food has been served
Shoulders have been given
Prayers have been said
and the majority of my anger and fear has dissolved...
I feel completely bare and motionless right now as I am unaware of what my next task is...should I do laundry, should I take the dog for a walk, should I eat, should I pray, should I cry, should I pretend nothing happened, should I prepare for when he comes home, should I just sit and be still?
I want this to be a dream, I want to wake up next to the man I love and forget these past two days.
I had a crappy crappy new years eve day and night
anD
I had a wonderful realization of Gods love.
My husband did something yesterday that now requires consequences to his actions, leaving me alone and semi worried ( only because I dont have any information on his situation/condition) but along with the heaviness in my heart there is a comfort.
God has shown me how much he cares for me by sending people my way or sending me to people as a strength and reassurance of his plan.
I have felt more loved in these last 24 hours by God's people here in Anacortes then ever before.
Doors have been opened
Food has been served
Shoulders have been given
Prayers have been said
and the majority of my anger and fear has dissolved...
I feel completely bare and motionless right now as I am unaware of what my next task is...should I do laundry, should I take the dog for a walk, should I eat, should I pray, should I cry, should I pretend nothing happened, should I prepare for when he comes home, should I just sit and be still?
I want this to be a dream, I want to wake up next to the man I love and forget these past two days.
Dec 29, 2008
Dec 23, 2008
Dec 12, 2008
Dinner
If you know me then you know that I am not much of a cook. I have been trying alot lately and have somewhat succeed at; lasagna, Shepard's pie, spaghetti and recently enchiladas ( i didn't eat the lasagna though)
Today I will try to conquer a new dish
trusty ole meatloaf.
I am not even sure if I like it or if i have even eaten it before, but I think I heard my husband say that he likes it so its worth the try...apparently many websites have encouraged me to make it alongside cornbread and mashed potatoes....
hopefully the gym can overcome what appears to be a very yummy unhealthy dinner tonight.
Dec 7, 2008
Dec 1, 2008
Sunday Nights
My husband plays an open mic night Sundays quite regularly at a local bar called the Watertown. He is quite amazing but that’s not the point of my thoughts at the moment.
I usually find myself sitting alone being a consumer/observer/fan of the talent that comes together to live out their passions.
Tonight I find myself being an observer of the others in the bar.
There aren’t many.
I am one of two females present, the other is a lady wearing a leopard print mooo moo type dress and a rain man’s hat, she is quite inebriated. Later on I will learn her name is Lydia and she will ask me to dance with her, kindly I will say no. She is sitting next to two men, one is an older gentlemen totally lost in the music ( I wonder what he thinks, maybe he had dreams of playing the electric guitar when he was younger, maybe he never pursued it or was never encouraged to) the other is a younger guy with curly hair down to his butt covered with a blue fleecy toque… later he will bring out his trumpet to jam with the rest of the musicians.
There are two young men who look like they stereotypically belong in this place, they are covered with tattoos and piercing. You can tell they are there for the music and the beer, they sit in the beaten up lounge chairs closest to the stage..you can tell this is a place they feel comfort in.
The singer I like is about to play a song alongside my love, so there my attention goes, my ears, my senses and my thoughts wanna be carried away to the song he sing, the song I requested.
There is nothing better then live music, good live music
He sings Redemption Song by Bob Marley
and he does a beautiful rendition.
I wanna close my eyes and get carried away by the words he sings ,
But I wont because I cant, because just as I am looking at the people in the bar I feel there eyes watching me and it makes me uncomfortable, it makes me feel vulnerable, so i do my best to brush it off and I go back to watching the singer sing, and my bass man play and the words fill my heart and I feel moved inside.
I usually find myself sitting alone being a consumer/observer/fan of the talent that comes together to live out their passions.
Tonight I find myself being an observer of the others in the bar.
There aren’t many.
I am one of two females present, the other is a lady wearing a leopard print mooo moo type dress and a rain man’s hat, she is quite inebriated. Later on I will learn her name is Lydia and she will ask me to dance with her, kindly I will say no. She is sitting next to two men, one is an older gentlemen totally lost in the music ( I wonder what he thinks, maybe he had dreams of playing the electric guitar when he was younger, maybe he never pursued it or was never encouraged to) the other is a younger guy with curly hair down to his butt covered with a blue fleecy toque… later he will bring out his trumpet to jam with the rest of the musicians.
There are two young men who look like they stereotypically belong in this place, they are covered with tattoos and piercing. You can tell they are there for the music and the beer, they sit in the beaten up lounge chairs closest to the stage..you can tell this is a place they feel comfort in.
The singer I like is about to play a song alongside my love, so there my attention goes, my ears, my senses and my thoughts wanna be carried away to the song he sing, the song I requested.
There is nothing better then live music, good live music
He sings Redemption Song by Bob Marley
and he does a beautiful rendition.
I wanna close my eyes and get carried away by the words he sings ,
But I wont because I cant, because just as I am looking at the people in the bar I feel there eyes watching me and it makes me uncomfortable, it makes me feel vulnerable, so i do my best to brush it off and I go back to watching the singer sing, and my bass man play and the words fill my heart and I feel moved inside.
Nov 28, 2008
Today
I love how the simplest of days can be the most brilliant.
We woke up late today, like 1 pm style late and began a day of cleaning and reorganizing (Jenn style)
He made me my favorite eggs coupled with the most delicious food ever invented.
TOAST.
I choose the kitchen and bedroom therefore eliminating the bathrooms from my list (they are boy type gross, plus he dirties them more then me) ... As I washed dishes I thought of how good it feels to be in this new season of life.
I love the;
New paint colours (orange, brown, coffee, red, and olive)
New floors
New organization
New fridge (hopefully)
New cream in the fridge
New step daughter
New (older) husband
New country (although sometimes i do have my worries about becoming Americanized)
Everything is fresh, beautiful, innocent, fragile, calm and overwhelming all the while being a great challenge and a non deserving expression of GODS love towards us.
I feel so unworthy but have a huge heart of graditude and awe at the same time.
Love is good but
GOD
IS
BETTER.
photo by leah tan
We woke up late today, like 1 pm style late and began a day of cleaning and reorganizing (Jenn style)
He made me my favorite eggs coupled with the most delicious food ever invented.
TOAST.
I choose the kitchen and bedroom therefore eliminating the bathrooms from my list (they are boy type gross, plus he dirties them more then me) ... As I washed dishes I thought of how good it feels to be in this new season of life.
I love the;
New paint colours (orange, brown, coffee, red, and olive)
New floors
New organization
New fridge (hopefully)
New cream in the fridge
New step daughter
New (older) husband
New country (although sometimes i do have my worries about becoming Americanized)
Everything is fresh, beautiful, innocent, fragile, calm and overwhelming all the while being a great challenge and a non deserving expression of GODS love towards us.
I feel so unworthy but have a huge heart of graditude and awe at the same time.
Love is good but
GOD
IS
BETTER.
photo by leah tan
Nov 26, 2008
Back In Action
Have you ever thought it was strange how ones emotions can go from feeling; lonely, hurt, angered, betrayed, unsure to completely happy, blessed, excited and then back to upset and unrest again?
Maybe you've never felt that before or you have had a variation of such, but it has happened to me recently and has completely derailed my sense of sanity and balance.
I have had moments when I have wanted to write but just can’t seem to make any sense of my thoughts or don’t want to write them down because they might convince me that i really am crazy or something close to it.
I like words, I like thoughts and imagination and insight and writing and balance and reading all of my friends blog's and sleeping in. I don’t like feeling purposeless or unbalanced or unfriendly or unthankful or unhappy.
I am in the most wonderful season of my life, shheeesh sometimes its mind-blowing and exhilarating and great and i want to share it with everyone but I don’t know how cause everyone i know is far away and/or what if they don’t believe me and what if they don’t care and what if i am not in the mood to share?
My thoughts are all over the place, but you get the point right?
Love is great, friends are great so is reading and hugging and sharing and eating pasta together, I just got married and that is even more then great, its humbling, warm, scary, beautiful, passionate, quiet and more then anything that i could ever have dreamed of.
photo by Leah Tan
Nov 1, 2008
Aug 25, 2008
Moving Time 2
A year ago I sat in this same empty space scared that I would not be able to live in a new place with a new person in this new neighbourhood and make it out semi alright.
I sat here with joy that there was a starbucks in view of my bedroom window with hopes that they would hire me and I would be able to start some sort of structured life.
And it happened, I started school, church, friends, work and life began and it was exciting
Now I am leaving, this will be the last time that I will call this place my very own without having to be a guest in it.
I am sad to be leaving but the sadness is more about leaving my friend here… I know I can come visit but it won’t be the same….
My roomie Jenn has been someone that I have been able to be completely myself around and still be loved…. Who else besides my sister (who has no choice), would allow me to fall on knees and grab there legs in a whiny plea to make me food and actually DO IT while laughing and probably thinking in her head that she lives with crazy. She has been the one who has seen me in my most girlie giggly *sigh in love stage as well as the one who has laid next to me and prayed for me when I was hurting inside. Jenny has danced with me down hallways, dressed me up for a fancy dinner, cooked me many AMAZING meals, motivated me to clean up and work out and reminded me how important reading books is. I am going to miss her. I am going to miss life together with her.
So I am excited about this next phase in my life but I kind of wish I could put a jenny in my pocket and bring here along.
I sat here with joy that there was a starbucks in view of my bedroom window with hopes that they would hire me and I would be able to start some sort of structured life.
And it happened, I started school, church, friends, work and life began and it was exciting
Now I am leaving, this will be the last time that I will call this place my very own without having to be a guest in it.
I am sad to be leaving but the sadness is more about leaving my friend here… I know I can come visit but it won’t be the same….
My roomie Jenn has been someone that I have been able to be completely myself around and still be loved…. Who else besides my sister (who has no choice), would allow me to fall on knees and grab there legs in a whiny plea to make me food and actually DO IT while laughing and probably thinking in her head that she lives with crazy. She has been the one who has seen me in my most girlie giggly *sigh in love stage as well as the one who has laid next to me and prayed for me when I was hurting inside. Jenny has danced with me down hallways, dressed me up for a fancy dinner, cooked me many AMAZING meals, motivated me to clean up and work out and reminded me how important reading books is. I am going to miss her. I am going to miss life together with her.
So I am excited about this next phase in my life but I kind of wish I could put a jenny in my pocket and bring here along.
Aug 8, 2008
Dress
I bought my dress today
I cant believe it
I have a dress
A pretty dress
No, Wait.... An Amazing dress
I cant believe it
I have a dress
A pretty dress
No, Wait.... An Amazing dress
Aug 6, 2008
wedding
me and my love have gone back and forth on how we want to get married….we are not really the tradition wedding type, so we have come up with other options about how we want this done…..but it seems after all the discussing we have come to the conclusion that we want a semi-traditional wedding…you know with the church, dress and tux! So I have been up for the last 2 ½ hours looking at wedding venues in his area and dresses for me. I tried to sleep but all my mind keeps thinking is that “ I need to get this done before school starts” partnered with “why doesn’t the internet just do it all for me” .
I am super stoked to get married to him but have never had the wedding planning bug, so I am kinda stuck since we both are kinda poor and not the planning type...
I am super stoked to get married to him but have never had the wedding planning bug, so I am kinda stuck since we both are kinda poor and not the planning type...
Jul 29, 2008
Great Big Mystery
Yesterday morning as I was rushing out the door I grabbed one of my roommates cd’s (she has a collection that I have never heard before, keeps my ears fresh) so that on my drive to work I could sing along with something new….well I ended up grabbing a cd by the singer Bethany Dillon and only listened to one song over and over again (if you’re a girl you can relate to the repeat button syndrome…its in us all) …. The song was great, every time I listened to it, it would say something different to me…..here are the main lyrics that I like ….
I have tried to be the queen
I have tried most everything
Leads me to the same place
On my knees or on my face
On my knees or on my face
Nations fall when You speak
And You have spoken over me
I am tired of giving in so easily
The way You keep on loving me
Is changing everything I see
It's a great big mystery
The first lines to stick something in my head are “nations fall when you speak and you have spoken over me”….. WOW, if nations can fall when God speaks to them, what will happen to me if I just allow his leading…what is happening to me because of his call on my life……
After that my very plea was mimicked in the lines “ I am tired of giving in so easily”….. so many times I have given in because I was lazy, scared, apathetic or just being prideful…and I am tired of it….
Then the last lines to keep playing over and over again in my head were/are “the way you keep on loving me, is changing everything I see” ….. Isn’t it true that because of the way God loves us we see things differently…
-the value and potential in people
-being good stewards of our earth
-caring about social justice and the hopeless
-the gifts in ourselves
-love..true loce, right love, love without getting tired
As i was listening to this song i felt humbled and empowered as if God werre trying to tell me something, something wonderful,something beautiful....
I have tried to be the queen
I have tried most everything
Leads me to the same place
On my knees or on my face
On my knees or on my face
Nations fall when You speak
And You have spoken over me
I am tired of giving in so easily
The way You keep on loving me
Is changing everything I see
It's a great big mystery
The first lines to stick something in my head are “nations fall when you speak and you have spoken over me”….. WOW, if nations can fall when God speaks to them, what will happen to me if I just allow his leading…what is happening to me because of his call on my life……
After that my very plea was mimicked in the lines “ I am tired of giving in so easily”….. so many times I have given in because I was lazy, scared, apathetic or just being prideful…and I am tired of it….
Then the last lines to keep playing over and over again in my head were/are “the way you keep on loving me, is changing everything I see” ….. Isn’t it true that because of the way God loves us we see things differently…
-the value and potential in people
-being good stewards of our earth
-caring about social justice and the hopeless
-the gifts in ourselves
-love..true loce, right love, love without getting tired
As i was listening to this song i felt humbled and empowered as if God werre trying to tell me something, something wonderful,something beautiful....
Home
It felt very nice to come to my place today after a somewhat stressful day…made me feel a bit peaceful and energized even though I am tired.
Maybe because I got to snuggle with my roommate
Maybe because it was clean and clutter free (not my room of course)
Maybe it’s because there is stuff here that is mine
Maybe it is because I can see starbucks from my bedroom
Maybe because my cell phone is completely dead
Or because I had some yummy amazing cereal for dinner.
I wanna to cook my food and stop eating just toast……and I want to cook good food…sheeesh I have lived with an amazing cook (its not just me who think this, she has more fans) …well I have lived with her for almost a year and never fully watched her do her thing…and her thing is awesome…..
I am sleepy and grammar is extra hard for me, so I am going to sleep
the photo above is of my future family.
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