I love how the simplest of days can be the most brilliant.
We woke up late today, like 1 pm style late and began a day of cleaning and reorganizing (Jenn style)
He made me my favorite eggs coupled with the most delicious food ever invented.
I choose the kitchen and bedroom therefore eliminating the bathrooms from my list (they are boy type gross, plus he dirties them more then me) ... As I washed dishes I thought of how good it feels to be in this new season of life.
I love the;
New paint colours (orange, brown, coffee, red, and olive)
New fridge (hopefully)
New cream in the fridge
New step daughter
New (older) husband
New country (although sometimes i do have my worries about becoming Americanized)
Everything is fresh, beautiful, innocent, fragile, calm and overwhelming all the while being a great challenge and a non deserving expression of GODS love towards us.
I feel so unworthy but have a huge heart of graditude and awe at the same time.
Love is good but
photo by leah tan
Nov 26, 2008
Have you ever thought it was strange how ones emotions can go from feeling; lonely, hurt, angered, betrayed, unsure to completely happy, blessed, excited and then back to upset and unrest again?
Maybe you've never felt that before or you have had a variation of such, but it has happened to me recently and has completely derailed my sense of sanity and balance.
I have had moments when I have wanted to write but just can’t seem to make any sense of my thoughts or don’t want to write them down because they might convince me that i really am crazy or something close to it.
I like words, I like thoughts and imagination and insight and writing and balance and reading all of my friends blog's and sleeping in. I don’t like feeling purposeless or unbalanced or unfriendly or unthankful or unhappy.
I am in the most wonderful season of my life, shheeesh sometimes its mind-blowing and exhilarating and great and i want to share it with everyone but I don’t know how cause everyone i know is far away and/or what if they don’t believe me and what if they don’t care and what if i am not in the mood to share?
My thoughts are all over the place, but you get the point right?
Love is great, friends are great so is reading and hugging and sharing and eating pasta together, I just got married and that is even more then great, its humbling, warm, scary, beautiful, passionate, quiet and more then anything that i could ever have dreamed of.
photo by Leah Tan